Bio Hazard Suit

In my world every hipin is born with a bio mass suit filled with poisonous anti matter that corrodes the foetus from the very time it is conceived. As we grow up the suit dissappears into several people or log of my vicinity that includes everyone I ever met or meet in real time anywhere. They all are much bigger are powerful than I am. In fact they are not even people or hipins like me, they are haye. So life is deeply enveloped inside these log who are keeping me in their realm forever.
So I can't exercise my will here™ at all, they have periods of destroying me then rebuilding me. I just keep getting destroyed by bringing them here.